Proverbs 3:5-7 (NIV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight. 7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the Lord and shun evil.
Today sucks! I am trying to smile my way through these feelings that I have. Anxiety, grief, confusion, happiness, and loneliness to name a few are emotions that want to succumb me. My chests is tight. Every day I struggle to keep my kids and husband’s spirits up as we navigate through our new norm. The day consists of meetings for everyone and trying to find a quiet space in our home that feels like it is closing in on all of us. While we (my husband Drew and I) try to find the right answer for the many questions that pop up from our children i.e. Why is this happening? How long is this going to last? Will we ever get back to normal? Is God mad at us? What have we done wrong? What is the lesson we should learn in all of this? Yes, the questions continue in the midst of our personal and collective struggles as a family.
I know we are all in this together everyday brings about it’s own set of challenges. It sounds simple and reasonable. And, reasonable doesn’t always win. I have learned over the 54 days we have been quarantined together that God makes no mistakes. We have been able to spend more time with Him during this time. He has helped me find/discover what’s really important – God, family, and gratitude for what I have and in the past have taken for granted. Also, it allows me to have clarity in understanding all the other worldly things that I/we were putting before God are really not that important.
Thank you for waking me up this morning and allow me to see another day. I know You had to sit me down to really discover what’s important and I’m grateful for that. Please continue to open my eyes during this time and stretch me in my faith.