Psalm 37:30 The mouths of the righteous utter wisdom, and their tongues speak what is just. (NIV)
How often have you found yourself saying, “If I knew then what I know now?” I can’t tell you the number of times that has been said. I heard my mom and others in my family who are now older and wiser say it and now it is a part of my repertoire.
I remember talking to a drug addict and hearing him say, “If I knew that one last hit would send me into a world of addiction.” I hear young women and men saying, “If I only knew that night of pleasure would send me into a world of hurt and pain.” I hear from married couples, “If I only knew that our marriage would end in divorce” or “If I would have known he/she would pass away before we even began to grow old together.” There are so many if I’s. “If I only knew that I would end up as a single parent.” The phrase is attached to so much of what happens in life. What does it all mean?
Hind sight is something we all can attest to. As people say, hindsight is 20/20. This thing called life is about living. It is about what we decide to sometimes knowingly and sometimes not so knowingly do. Life is filled with choices. I say this and firmly believe that every choice we make God already knows about it. He also knew that those personal choices would be apart of our life’s journey. It is in “going through” that we have a testimony. It is when we have to call on “Our Father who art in heaven”. Life – don’t forget that this storm will not last forever. The mistakes, thoughtlessness, last word, action, behaving badly all are a part of our being human and being frail. We in and of ourselves are not equipped to handle the storms of life without having our hands in the hands of our heavenly Father.
Thank you for being so amazing and allowing me to go through the things that I have been through so that I can be a stronger person in faith and be a living testimony of what God can do in your life. Please allow me not to beat myself up on things that I did not know then that I know now. Please allow that phrase to be my tool and my fuel to press forward.