Just Like an Automoblie

Philippians 4:6 (NKJV) Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

When I started this post three weeks ago, we were having a winter storm. My spirit, my soul and my body felt weary. I couldn’t tell if it was due to the weather that I was driving through or if I was sensing something that was about to happen.  I thought it might mean I would recover from the hives that had been plaguing my body for over a week. But I knew one thing for sure, I could not do this battle by myself. 

As I was driving, my emotions began to come over me.  I began to feel as though I was going to tear up.  In that moment a song popped into my heart and my mind.  I felt as if my grandfather was sitting right there singing the song to me. This song is titled “Christian Automobile.” Growing up I would hear my family sing this song every time we got together.  My grandfather sang this song every opportunity he got.  Whether we were at one of his friends’ houses, a family gathering or church; people would ask him to sing this song.

It wasn’t until this very day that the words became clear and I fully understood its true meaning.  The lyrics of the song talk about every child is running to Jesus just like an automobile.  It goes on to say, “prayer is your driver’s license, faith is your steering wheel.”  It is a clear illustration of how you have to go up the hills of life even though it’s rough and your soul is getting weary.

It is a wonderful illustration of a car that may not be the newest or most expensive but it is serving its purpose.  It lets me know that just like a car chugging along, I will get through.  How will this happen? I will check in with God through prayer.  I have faith that He will come through.  God is always by our side.  With Him as the head of your life we will get through this journey.  

As I said I had no idea what was going to take place, but over these past three weeks I have been really sick with my MS.  I have not been doing well. My ex-husband decided to come back and take me through a rigorous ordeal involving our children. I began to feel overwhelmed. I questioned all that God had laid out before me. But with this song running strongly through my blood and through my heart and with prayer and meditation I was able to get through the journey.

Dear God,

My gracious heavenly Father, I just want to lift Your name up in praise!  Thank You for continually carrying me.  You are there when I feel like the world is heavier than what I can bear. Thank You for Your continuous coverage over me and my family.  As I go through this week, if it is Your will, allow me to share my testimony of how You brought me through. If it had not been for the Lord by my side where would I be?

Amen

The Great Masquerade of Life

2 Corinthians 5:17 (NKJV) Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

 Do you have a mask that you wear? Or do you have a variety of masks that you don depending on who, what or where? I know that I have worn a number of masks. I always have wanted to believe that I show up in my full authentic, transparent, Christian, spiritual, loving and funny self. Quite often that is true. Yet, I realize there is a season when that really happens.

However, as you go through life it seems like you meet people that wear so many different faces. You see them in one place and they are one way. You see them somewhere else and you don’t even recognize who they are. You may say, “Hum, I thought I knew them, I guess I don’t.” In the moment I didn’t stop to think are they having an off day. The truth is at times you may have found yourself behaving in some of the same ways.  Ever been in that spot? 

When you apply for a job do you show your true self? Or, when you see somebody you’re interested in do you show “All of Who You Are”? I don’t understand why we always hide behind a mask. Is it because we are ashamed of the person that we truly are on the inside? Or, is it that it is easier putting on a face to be accepted or at least show what you think is your best self? 

I finally have reached a point in my life that I no longer am willing to hide who I truly am. I am a strong woman that walks proudly. I stand in and believe in my faith. I am a woman that wears her heart on her sleeve. I’m a woman that cries. I’m a mother. I’m a wife. I’m a survivor. I’m a Child of God. 

What if we hid behind the mask of being a true Christian?  What if we wore a mask of being a bold and proud Christian? What would that look like?

Dear God,

Thank you for always giving me the desire to be more like you.  You continue to show me so much grace each and every day. I pray Lord God that you surround my being with your everlasting love. That I too will show and be an example of your love. And in doing so, people can bear witness of the love you have given me.

Amen

 

Do We Know Our Work?

 

Jeremiah 29:11(NKJV) 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

The other night I was driving home with my daughter Maya and we were having our typical mother daughter conversation. She asked her twenty plus questions in under a minute. I am always amazed at her thought process, analogies and thirst to learn so much.

As I tried to keep up with Maya and give her the best response I could in the moments I had to respond.  I sat so pleased and grateful that our relationship allowed her to feel comfortable asking me questions and sharing her thoughts and ideas. After a bit she stopped asking questions and it was quiet for at least five minutes.

Then right when I began to get comfortable with a moment of silence, Maya looked at me and said, “Mommy sometimes when I am silent I  am just thinking  about will I be able to  finish the work that I want to do here on earth before I die.” My mind began to race and as I tried to come up with an answer. She hit me with another question, “Will I finish my work up in heaven?”

Both questions shook my soul. I responded, “I believe God will allow you to complete your work here on earth before you die. Your job in heaven might be something that we can’t even put into words here on earth.”  Since then I have marveled at her commitment to her work at such a young age. Wow! May God show her favor!

Maya’s questions reminded me that tomorrow is never promised. Also, that I, and the rest of us who are His children, should consider this – “with the days we are given here on earth, are we living out God’s will for our life and if so are we working towards it?”

Dear God,

Thank You for putting people in my life that continue to make think about what I am doing. Especially my daughter Maya, a precious gift You have given me. You are so amazing in all that You do. I ask that You give me the strength to stand strong in my faith and that my work here on earth is pleasing in Your sight.

Amen

Sitting On the Edge of My Seat

Psalms 96:3(NKJV) “Declare His glory among the nations, His wonders among all peoples.”

As I watched the playoff games over the weekend I noticed how we as sports fans reacted to the ups and downs, highs and lows of the game.  The hysteria and elation as the appearance of winning and losing for the favored team ebbed and flowed. The passion and excitement was so strong and intense.  Those cheering for the same team shared and bonded around their team.

It’s amazing how football brings so many people together from different walks of life. As we all sit on the edge of our seats we share food and an array of emotional outburst. Our team has us unified, beaming and letting everyone know who we support and stand for!

That night before I laid down God truly spoke me. He asked me, “What if you sat on the edge of your seat for me?” I thought to myself what am I doing that God questioned if I would sit on the edge of my seat for Him.

I then asked myself, how about the hours you spend watching your favorite TV shows? Will you begin to spend that amount of time studying the word and being in prayer and meditation? How could I show my passion and dedication to God? Would I begin to share my testimonies and scream about the blessings I have received?

I decided that I must share the good news of my Lord and Savior. God told me that His children should hear and be reminded to come together because of Him. Jesus paid it all.

 

Dear God,

 Thank you for making me stop and think about how I am showing up for you. Lord thank you for the grace and mercy you give me each day. As I start this week help me as I share the goodness of my God. Let me sing your praises and remember that I am on the winning team, as I live out my purpose here on this earth.

 Amen

Strength

Philippians 4:13(NKJV): 13 I can do all things through Christ[a] who strengthens me.

Strength and being strong is something that most of us work towards. We seek strength in a number of ways. Most develop their strength by working out. Others will seek to strengthen their mental mindset to get through life.

As a young girl, and even today, I look at my mother with admiration for her strength and how strong she is. She raised 3 children and helped raise some of her grandchildren while being a single parent. I know at times life is hard for her and we as children don’t always make it easy on her with some of our life choices. I have really have not seen my mother cry more than a handful of times. And, I have never heard her complain about what life was throwing at her. 

When I was young I would ask myself, “Where does Mom get her strength from?” I would also wonder if being a strong woman meant we shouldn’t cry or show emotion when something or someone hurts us. That thinking didn’t come from my mother, she stands in her strength. This feeling about being a strong woman came from society. In turn that made me resent the words “you are a strong woman.” 

I would cringe when someone would tell me I was a strong woman, as if I should be wearing a badge. It wasn’t until I started to re-frame how that statement made me feel and change my response to it that I could receive it more positively.

In my need to understand, I turned to God. I began to really seek Him and talk with Him. He began to show me what strength and being strong really meant. I realized my mother’s strength came from the Lord and her commitment to Him made her strong. My walk with my God has allowed me to face each victory knowing there would be more challenges ahead. And yes, I am strong with Him!

 

Dear God,

Thank you for Your continuous grace and mercy.  You have made me and my family strong.  When this week gets tough please let me be reminded where my strength comes from. I owe You all the praise and glory.

Amen

Resolution with God

 

Psalm 51: 10 – 11(KJV): 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. 11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.

New Year’s resolutions are something that I usually break within the first 3 days of making them. This year I am going to change the narrative of that story. But before I start, I have to figure out what happened in past years that caused me to break goals I set for myself.  Is it that most of my goals are superficial? Maybe the goals I make aren’t realistic for me to achieve?

As I have this personal pity party the answer becomes clear to me. I have been making resolutions about me and what I will do.  This has been done in isolation without speaking to God and asking Him for His guidance for the year.  So, this year as I embark on a new resolution in partnership with God I will have to really be open to change, be fearless, and really put all my trust in Him. I will have to make sure that I will not make things my will, but His.

So let me be vulnerable for a second. I have been writing this blog because I had truly been led by God to do so.  Then I decided to stop blogging and start writing a book.  That’s when everything got messed up. I derailed from what God wanted me to do to focus on my own personal goal. When I tell you I had writer’s block it was like to the 10th degree. I was praying and asking God what happened to our line. He asked me as clear as day, “Who told you to write a book? I told you to start a blog and allow Me to use you to reach people.” So to start 2018 off right I have to totally and completely surrender to God.

Dear God,

Thank you for the many blessings you gave me in 2017. You are truly an amazing and powerful God.  Lord, as I start this week I ask that you be with me every step of the way and guide my path.  As I reflect on last year I  ask that you help me be obedient to Your will for 2018. 

Amen

 

 

It Gets Better

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1 John 4:4  – You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.

Have you ever thought back on your life and wondered how you got through it all.  Especially thinking about life as you were growing up.  From kindergarten on, life was at times filled with difficult things. 

I remember as a child I thought life is just not fair on so many occasions.  At times I was happier than I could ever imagine and there were those times when I was hurt, sad, angry and in despair.

As a mother I often see myself in my children.  I can relate to some of the issues they face. Things like being teased, trying to fit in, or just simply not understanding some of life’s many challenges.  When they come to me with sadness, anger, hurt and tears – I see a reflection of me.  I always stop, take the time and listen to them.  Their sorrow is real.

After listening, I tell them if I could go back in time I would tell my younger self – life gets better. As you take each issue that life throws your way you get stronger and wiser. My son asked, “what would you tell yourself now mommy.”  I responded with. “I would tell myself  don’t lose sight of your true passion.”  I let them know that even as a child and as they grow up,”with God all things are possible.”

Dear God,

Thank you for always seeing me through life’s many challenges. I  ask that I will not lose sight of the reason I am here on this earth. Also please give me the words to say when encouraging my children and others.

Amen